I'm... Free?
I'm FREE!so long i was under probation..
so long i had to go home before 9pm..
FINALLY,
i am really free..
but am i really free?
i know i am free..
but can i handle freedom?
it seems like nothing has changed,
happiness should be here but,
it really is not at the same time..
But why do this like that happen?
Why am i not happy that i am free?
My answer is almost the same as any philosopher would say,
happiness in life is spilt into parts,
achieveing a few things is key but what are these things?
i would say
1) Knowledge
2) Home
3) Environment
4) Love
Doesn't everyting seem to be coming into place now?
What am i lacking in my life?
What do i have less than another?
Why am i unable to be like another?
How come, am i just falling?
I have been lonely for so long,
like nothing has gone right at all..
I almost lose all feelings in my heart..
or have i?
Somethings suddenly fly back into me,
yesterday it felt like a realization,
in my heart things from the past i never forget..
i really don't do i?
Chinese New Year is around the corner,
but there is nothing new,
i am free yes i am..
But it doesn't really mean anything either..
not without certain people in my life..
i guess i can't move on at all..
i don't think some will read this but,
in the case of her i guess..
its really true isn't it?
孤独万岁 失恋无罪
谁保证 一觉醒来有人陪
我对於人性早有预备还不算太黑
独身万岁 失恋无罪
爱不够爱你的人 才受罪用过去悲伤换来自由难道不珍贵
This says, bring single rocks and theres nothing wrong with falling out of love
especially because no one can ensure the person will be there in the morning
Only those who do not love love will use suffering to get freedom.
But than again,
how about this?
So if you're lonely why'd you say your not lonely
Oh your a silly girl, I know I hurt it so
It's just like you to come
And go you know me no you don't even know me
Your so sweet to try, oh my, you caught my eye
A girl like you's just irresistible
I guess saying we don't need love is just an excuse,
loving love is what truly happens.
hey bitch,
i miss you bitch,
i really do..
you know i do..
moments spent with you are like branding scars on my heart,
i mss you..
++ purred Chadokia at 3:24 AM |
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